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General musings
Dec. 23rd, 2015 01:29 pmThe end of the year is fast approaching, and I must say 2015 has taken me several places I never expected. I won't bore anyone with the details, but in hindsight, I think I am where I need to be. I'm looking into all sorts of possible paths to go from here, and I *still* wake up and am grateful I don't have to go back to that job.
Yes, finances are tight; yes, it is worrying that I have so much up in the air; yes, the future concerns me. But it's taken me weeks to pull myself out of the pit that I had slowly descended into due to work. I'm not completely out of it, but having this time off to really and truly recharge my batteries has been so amazing, I feel more like 'me' than I have in years, at least, without having to fake it till I made it.
So that's good, I think.
Mainly, I'm just exciting that I'm writing again, that I'm excited about my writing again. I have one more major fanfic work to complete, and then the next big projects will be my Inquisitor fic and my original novel. I have such feels for both, it's weird to think about actually writing them. But it's better to concentrate on that than to worry about the job (or lack of it), or to fret about low readership numbers, or to experience existential morbid dread.
I'll write, and play, and enjoy myself, and try not to worry. Easier said than done, but I couldn't even formulate those words two months ago. So I've made progress.
Here's to 2016!
Yes, finances are tight; yes, it is worrying that I have so much up in the air; yes, the future concerns me. But it's taken me weeks to pull myself out of the pit that I had slowly descended into due to work. I'm not completely out of it, but having this time off to really and truly recharge my batteries has been so amazing, I feel more like 'me' than I have in years, at least, without having to fake it till I made it.
So that's good, I think.
Mainly, I'm just exciting that I'm writing again, that I'm excited about my writing again. I have one more major fanfic work to complete, and then the next big projects will be my Inquisitor fic and my original novel. I have such feels for both, it's weird to think about actually writing them. But it's better to concentrate on that than to worry about the job (or lack of it), or to fret about low readership numbers, or to experience existential morbid dread.
I'll write, and play, and enjoy myself, and try not to worry. Easier said than done, but I couldn't even formulate those words two months ago. So I've made progress.
Here's to 2016!
